LDR sucks

yes, even though it is just 24 days of it.

the boyf and I chatted over the phone last night in the wee hours (1am Sing and 12midnight Thai). It sucks that I can only hear his voice and not see him cause he is there to undergo training on how to safeguard the country and no, they do not have internet/webcam access. :(

to know that he is so worried about leaving me in Singapore while he is in Thailand just makes my heart ache even more & of course love him even more so.

since he has been to Thailand, i have been having insomnia (you know if you read my previous entry) and bouts of stomachaches. the frequency has been getting higher and i still haven't gotten the reason to that. he knows about all these cause I will send him a lengthy message every night to tell him about my day.

just something he told me really touched me deeply...

boyf: you have the most bubbly personality I've known.. please don't let insomnia and those bad illness get to you and drag you down. I still want the bubbly you and it hurts to see you in pain, being so tired and weak.

to the boyf: thank you so much. i miss you so badly, it's driving me crazy. now i understand how my sister and my friends went through, it is very emotionally taxing. not being able to discuss matters with you, not being able to share good or bad news with you immediately and not being able to see you and spend time with you. Over the 24 days, you couldn't contact me for 10 days, not even an sms and while i'm proud that i got through that, i don't want it to repeat itself again (but i know, you have no choice if the defence ministry beckons) just hurry come back safe and sound, that will be all I want from you..







for now. hehehehehe.







3 more days (technically)